i want to eat prata
._.
i don't want to be stuck in school waiting for cca which starts at 7.30pm.
alone.
i have absolutely no motivation to go for cca anymore.
it's not that i don't like salsa.
i just hate the waiting.
thought it would help if i took up a cca to try to get the feel of being in a uni as much as possible.
not that successful i'm afraid.
plus i don't even know all the people in today's class. i'm just crashing cause i skipped thursday's.
don't know what my classmates are talking about.
absolutely no idea.
can't catch up.
okay it's my fault. i need to read up more and start doing my work.
and stop complaining that i don't understand anything.
(but i really don't.)
makes me question myself as to why the hell am i taking a business course.
shouldn't be thinking such thoughts.
very irritated that i got so low for accounting, when my other classmates can get higher.
it's not like i didn't study-- i did. so where the fuck did i go wrong?
i expected myself to get higher marks. i know i could get higher marks.
why the fuck did i only get so low.
and as biased and unsupported this judgement is,
i find it very unfair how some can get high marks when we know that they aren't that hardworking irl.
i mean,
asking your bf to write an essay for you? in the middle of the lecture hall where everyone can see you?
what kind of impression are you giving the rest of us?
found out today all my in-text referencing for my OB essay all wrong.
all wrong.
please just let me pass.
group members who don't contribute or speak up during group meetings and letting the rest of us do the work.
it's your own fault we paired the both of you up to force the both of you to do some work, so don't complain and blame us for our actions.
stoning and waiting for input. when we ask you for yours you just say "i dunno" or "refer to textbook" or "whatever you think then correct lor". what the fuck, if the answer is in the textbook, then why the hell do i need to ask you. and you are our fucking leader. DO SOMETHING. URGH.
the other also don't speak up. when it comes to non-academic related stuff you're enthusiastic like hell. but you turn so quiet during group meetings. seriously. what the fuck do you want the both of us to do with you?
it's not like OB is an easy topic either. it's organisational behaviour for god's sake. psychology. opinions. views. PERSONAL INPUT AND THINKING AND REFLECTIONS. SPEAK UP GODDAMNIT. I DON'T EVEN MIND IF YOU CRAP. JUST TALK.
URGGGHHH.
and you, yes, you're a very nice guy. you really are.
you help me whenever i go into a panic mode, and i thank you a lot.
but
why the hell do you want to crash our group's meetings?!
can you have some social awareness???
and YES i know you have high expectations for yourself. but when you already have a high distinction and you know the person whom you're talking to only has a credit can you like, CHOOSE ANOTHER PARTY TO EMO TO? because even if you have a HD it still isnt high enough for your expectations?
and when people say they only just finish their assignments and they don't understand some parts can you be more humble and sensitive and just KEEP YOUR ACHIEVEMENTS TO YOURSELF.
some of us already have some problems understanding excel.
some of us are not computer geeks.
some of us don't really know what the question is asking for and what we're supposed to be analyzing.
we are struggling to understand the basics and to just PASS.
so SHUT UP and STOP telling us that you sent a two page note to the lecturer telling him that his example is wrong and that you managed to think of your own solution and ask if you can use it and you JOLLY WELL KNOW you're already spoiling the market with your so-called model answer and insightful solution that only YOU managed to think up of and the rest of us couldn't and all that extra stuff that you put in your report you are SURE to get a HD so SHUT UP and stop saying that
"Oh no la, i still think it's not good enough. Probably only get credit."
WHAT THE FUCK, SERIOUSLY?
i'm in a really pissy mood right now.
i'm supposed to be completing my accounting assignment.
i need to go for cca in ten minute's time.
URGH.
and YOU.
you know, if you're not interested anymore, you can just pass us the goddamn clips and we'll do it ourselves.
do you know how irritating it is and how disappointed and inferior we feel when you go around publishing and announcing the news that you've just edited this and edited that and uploaded this and uploaded that.
GOSH, you even have time to edit BTS stuff.
WHERE THE HELL IS OURS?
YOU SAID YOU'D GIVE IT TO US BEFORE FEBRUARY.
IT'S ALREADY MARCH.
sometimes i ask for shoots and specify that i'm chionging this particular character because the chapter just came out.
or because i need to upload this asap.
which is why i squeeze in a time for a shoot.
and i expect my photos to be out soon also.
i've waited. every photog says they're busy and piling up with work.
i don't even know when it is safe or not safe to ask for photos anymore.
i don't even care if my shoot is outdated anymore.
take all the time in the world that you need.
